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Trauma
EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) is a comprehensive, integrative psychotherapy approach. It contains elements of many effective psychotherapies in structured protocols that are designed to maximize treatment effects. These include psychodynamic, cognitive behavioral, interpersonal, experiential, and body-centered therapies. When a traumatic or very negative event occurs, information processing may be incomplete, perhaps because strong negative feelings or dissociation interfere with information processing. This prevents the forging of connections with more adaptive information that is held in other memory networks. When the individual thinks about the trauma, or when the memory is triggered by similar situations, the person may feel like he or she is reliving it, or may experience strong emotions and physical sensations. A prime example is the intrusive thoughts, emotional disturbance, and negative self-referencing beliefs of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
Addiction
Addiction is the continued repetition of a behavior despite adverse consequences, or a neurological impairment leading to such behaviors. Addictions can include, but are not limited to: drug abuse, alcohol, exercise, food, computer, and gambling. Classic hallmarks of addiction include impaired control over substances or behavior, preoccupation with substance or behavior, continued use despite consequences, and denial. Habits and patterns associated with addiction are typically characterized by deriving immediate gratification (short-term reward) with little or no thought to the long-term costs of the behavior. Physiological dependence occurs when the body has to adjust to the substance by incorporating the substance into its normal functioning.
Grief
Any loss can shake our foundation and cause disruption to our daily lives. It's natural and normal to go through a period of mourning when suffering a loss of a loved one, a marriage, or even a job. Grieving is a personal and highly individual experience. How one grieves depends on many factors, including personality and coping style, life experience, faith, and the nature of the loss. The grieving process takes time and healing happens gradually. There is no 'normal' timetable for grieving. Yet, it's important to continue to move through the grieving process and not get stuck in the pain of the grief you are experiencing.